Everyone deals with the stress load in different ways. Things happen in life that causes of take a break on our realities and refocus back on our self. Unfortunately, I don't have that luxury. I keep hearing people say, you get paid the big bucks-but the mathematical logic of that is in correct. I don't really take home more than I use to. This position was not about the money, as I already put in my years on the pay scale. It was more about understanding the systematic of things that have continuously failed-YET we KEEP still doing the same old same old. It is very easy to complain and say we need to change, but it takes more to make the change. And I am slowly learning, you have to put yourself in a position of vulnerability and being attacked to make changes. This past month I became really tired of what people kept saying and not taking initiate to do something about it. In this world it is easy to be complacent, then to step up and fight the fight.
I have dealt with this external stress but closing the doors to many. I focused on my own controls and made sure I was still looking two to four steps ahead. I understand that no one will think or do as I do, but I wish for some moments in education we stop thinking about ourselves and understand the collective whole. I had to do a lot this month that wasn't so glamours and yet I did it for the good of others. How frustrating that no one else comes up with solutions.
Anyway, that has been my entire mood for January. This past has shown me that I need to stay away from people, that I have to put my own self away from others because they themselves lack the exchange of who you are. In the daily routines, I have been sticking to the morning workouts, even though I have days where I can't move or get up because it is cold. I've been watching the carbs lately, but seem to have blown it this weekend. And it is okay, it happens.
As February rolls through, just have to keep moving with the motions and handle whatever comes my way. I have to tell myself, that the whole person that can make you do anything is myself.