For teachers, there is never enough time to give 100% of yourself. Teachers become burnt out. The teacher that gives their all, is asked to x,y, and z and when goals, agenda, or outcomes are not equally shared there is always miscommunication. I have learned that we ask the best from our teachers, and yet we ask for more on those we know who don't disappoint. It is a new perspective I have been learning the hard way with. This week and last I felt unbalanced and it has been a challenge to just keep it together. I don't give up, but just pulling myself through it all.
I honestly wish there were more hours in the day and that I didn't feel so tired so quickly, and battle insomnia every other night. I enjoy the little wins in my daily grind- but is it enough? Lately, I have been doubting my ability to pass & study for my exam and whether that is the path I want to direct myself towards. With the changes in my life, it is slowly hitting me that I feel empty sometimes. That you can always smile and do your routine with perfection, but you can't stop the thoughts in your mind. The self-doubt, the strength to stand on your own, and to move forward to the unknown. I am adjusting from being used to planning every detail and taking the lead; to letting go and just going along with the flow.