Since I have become an administrator, I feel the draining hours of coming day in and day out. Stopping what I am doing, and dealing with the crazy that comes to my door. I have had experience things students should never go through, but here we are. I have stood in front of the board talking about that isn't my expertise, but a need to know for me. I have had police talk to me, and all the moments of COVID happening at the school. Luckily nothing drastic but it has been a heavy lift. Enough for me to runaway and not return to work. This job is not for the ease of hearts. You have to have a backbone, and understand that even though what is brought to you may be the stupidest thing, you still have to treat it with the greatest importance. I hate TikTok because they brainwash mankind on social media to do vandalism, theft, and fight all for the limelight of being on a 30 second video for views and likes. At this point, I should just become a police officer after this because that is the bull I am living day in and out.
I am annoyed when someone tells me the day of the week now, because EVERYDAY is crazy. I have also noticed that the social and emotional needs is a hot mess. LEGIT HOT MESS. I believe it starts at home. School is academically focused, but here we are teaching students how to behave and be nice to each other. I am still wrapping my head around that entire concept.
As you read on, I am more cynical to my ownself. This past week my family from Jersey came to visit. So it was nice to leave work to just enjoy family. CrossFit is still in my routine, 5 am every morning I am up and awake. It has been TOUGH to do it, and sometimes I am moody in the morning when I get to the gym because I am exhausted from work itself. But I still go, because without I may lose myself.
I don't what the silver lining is to my position now. But it sure was easy to be a teacher. I definitely know that.