B2SN was a bit sad- I had no one show up my first period, and then 4 parents in the second period. Although, I expected that since a lot of my students are older and most likely do not tell their parents about B2SN. It would have been nice to meet them, as I feel most of my students are quite successful in the course. As for the AVID program, we as a PLC had all the parent meet in the library and we had our seniors share their experiences. I felt it was more valuable than going over a slideshow of the syllabus. It also builds an image/visual of what the AVID student will be their senior year.
Other than the busy-ness of work, I am still working on how to motivate my students. Usually, it is not a struggle for me, but this year that has been my ongoing issue. I am using all the tricks I have been using, but I honestly feel like I am not connecting with them. I guess it does not matter how many years you have under your belt because every year is always different. I question how I used to do it before because I feel like I am losing my touch. In my head, I feel like I need to remind myself what is most important to me when I see my students. What do I expect from them, and how am I telling them that. As I become older and the gap in years happen for me to my students I honestly feel old. I know I am not, but still, the rationale of adulthood is becoming real.
It is an on-going project I will need to work on now. Along with all the other programs I need to start working on too. I know I am overwhelmed with work and its only been 4 weeks! I haven't even started my internship yet!
So, what has been keeping me afloat? Its once again the awesome people I work with. The conversations I have with the few that I can be honest with, joke around with and just breathe around them. That has been my saving grace for many low moments in my life. This month has been okay, but there is one last lingering day I want to past already. I think once I passed that day, I hope that I can close that door and no longer look back. It is supposed to be the day that would have meant that most meaningful in my life. But it is now the day I wish to past and let go of what it was meant to be. I remind myself that events happen for a reason, they create a cause and effect on you and the world around you. Every day I feel like I am in a better place, even though it was never my dream to be here.
I really do like the circle of people I have even if I don't tell them that, they have really made me love myself. The other motivational thing in my life is still Crossfit. My cousin and I have made it for 2 months! And I had my first PR on my push press. I am pretty proud that I have been suffering through it! It is hard, but it has helped my mind be totally clear and really listen to my body to be healthier and to just be happy in the place that I am in. One more month before I start another year around the sun.